Today, I was triggered by a conversation I had with an elderly man. He talked to me about his intention to sell his house because he wants to fund his grand-children’s studies - apart from one grand-son. Why? Because this particular grand-son has a dream. The young man wants to be an actor (and is currently studying drama at an internationally renowned university). The elderly man said:’ I cannot help him, I cannot support him in being an actor. Thankfully the other children are all bright and sorted and will be lawyers and engineers. Well, except the actor’s sister. She is bright and yet she wants to be a hairdresser. It’s so sad.’ This really upset me. Following your artistic and creative dreams can really set you on a lonely path. Why should some dreams be better than others? Following your dreams - especially if those dreams set you on an unconventional path - is not easy because you will often face the judgement of others, especially from the ones you love the most.
But if you do not listen to your heart, you will carry with you the weight of regrets. You will settle for a life of comfort instead of your grand adventure. Believe me, it’s been my story for too long and it’s been really painful. I am not often supported in my dreams by those I love. Simply because they don’t understand my unconventional lifestyle or my visions. They are scared and worried for me because they love me. Yet, for too long I had to temper my wilder self, my dreamer, my fire, my passion, my spirit...just to fit in and be accepted.
When I have trusted and followed my heart, it worked out for me, always. When I haven’t, life became a struggle. I have made a promise to myself to follow my dreams, convinced that it is never too late and that my dreams are never too big. The most insane (I still can’t believe it happened!) example I have to date is when I left my corporate job on the advice of a psychic hypnotherapist to jump straight into the music business that I knew nothing about, and managed to land a fantastic job as a PR working for my top favourite bands. I mean, I had no experience whatsoever and yet I got a job that would make a thousand people green with envy! When I said I wanted to work in the music industry, everyone was laughing at me. My dad thought I had lost all touch with reality and got temporarily insane. Yet, against the odds, I did it!
Later on, I forgot about my dreams. Or at least, I forgot how to hear and follow them. So instead, I helped other people with their own dreams. Although it makes me truly happy to help others, I cannot feel fulfilled as there is a primal need and a deep longing inside me that require my full attention. My dream is calling again. And, as I am carefully listening to my heart, I am silently preparing for my next chapter, the big adventure I have been waiting for for far too long. I am scared and yet my whole being is shouting a big yes and is shivering with excitement ...And even though my choices may sometimes seem controversial to friends and family, I am being true to myself, authentic and aligned with who I am. I feel at peace with my heart and this is what matters. I can't wait to share my adventures and dreams with you!
In these challenging times of environmental crisis, I reflect on my personal journey of reconnection to the Earth and to my own nature.
I grew up in a small town located in the industrial Northern France and spent 15 years in large cities as an adult. I was the typical city girl, passionate about fashion trends, culture and arts and felt no attraction whatsoever to rural landscapes or outdoor activities, apart from the annual touristic beach holiday of course! I never questioned the environmental impact of my lifestyle choices.
I had been living in London for 5 years when I enrolled for a shamanic course in Dorset. I found myself on a beautiful pristine land populated by deers, badgers, horses, foxes, rabbits and bees. I came to love my long daily walks and shamanic work in nature very much. One night as I was stargazing, I realised that my whole being was hungry. Hungry for nature. Hungry for life. And that this hunger was the source of my chronic stress and constant unhappiness. That night I prayed for a radical change and a life more aligned with who I was deep inside. The next morning, instead of jumping on the train back to London, I got a lift to Devon and landed in the small alternative town of Totnes. I thought I had arrived in heaven. I was in awe of the beauty of nature everywhere I looked and of the kindness and the peace that emanated from the local people. I ended up making Totnes my home where I spent 9 lovely years. It was the perfect place for me to heal and to learn. There, I connected to the land, prayed to the Earth, sat around the fire, swam naked in the rivers, lived in the woods, learnt to connect to my voice, shared stories and songs with brothers and sisters, loved deeply, found freedom in my body, danced like no one was watching, reconnected to Source, ate raw foods, dressed like a hippy and even sang to the cows. I reclaimed the wild woman in me. And gosh, that felt so incredibly good! I rediscovered who I was and found happiness in the simplest things. I also learned what community means and how nourishing and necessary it is for me and for the well being of the people. We are all together in this adventure of life.
As I went deeper into my spiritual journey, I started learning a lot from traditional indigenous healing, consciously working with the natural elements and the plant kingdom. This changed my life forever. When I became aware of the potency and consciousness of the plants all around us, I could not stop crying. Tears of sadness for what we are doing to our planet; tears of gratitude for the magnificence of the earth and the beauty that surrounds us; tears of joy for the realisation that the Earth is my mother and that her generosity is endless. When you feel disconnected from yourself or out of alignment with your truth, go out and connect to the earth. Sometimes, the best medicine is under your feet. It has been shown that connecting to nature on a regular basis increases our happiness and therefore improves our general state of health. The Earth deserves our upmost respect and our deepest love and care. She gives us everything we’ll ever need if we allow her to. And so, should we respect, love and care for ourselves and for each other. What we do to the earth, we do to ourselves for we are not separate from nature. We are nature. So, give this gift to yourself: Connect to nature. Talk to her, and if you care to listen, she will reveal her wisdom to you, she will guide your path and she will sing you her songs of everlasting love.